Those are wings on the side. I remember my mom tell me when I was really young, they'd tried for a long time before she had become pregnant. And thought they might not be able to... I feel like she told me when I was really young; she had cried and cried, Prayed to God...

sometime (around 20 or so I was changing, from a dead weight... -Suspended more like- through a better intermediary integral to life form. I had a strange knowledge... or inspiration; it occurred to me and I believe she vowed a vow to the Lord that if she was able to have a child,.. I believe she vowed me to the Lord and forgot.

I remember it coming into my mind like confirmation,.. the light. like consciousness. I'm not sure how else or where it'd come from? or why I would think something like that. I remember having assurance, cognition. and thinking, that's explained something of why I'm like this...